Yup, its time for the weekend. While I’m excited about not having to work on Monday, I’m not that excited about this weekend (or weekends in general anymore). I’m going to sound like a baby, but I don’t really care right now.  I’m resenting my boyfriend. He took a job that requires really odd hours (7pm-7 or 8am) and his only days off are Sunday and Monday. As a result I only get to see him Sunday night for a short while (because he sleeps all day and I go to sleep early), and for a few hours on Monday night. This Sunday I will at least get to stay up longer since I don’t have to work the next day…but this schedule is really getting to me.

Its kind of funny that I should be so annoyed at not getting to see him every day when we went through a full 3 years of a long distance relationship and I only got to see him during the summers and winter break. I guess I’ve gotten used to seeing him every day, to the point that I suppose I’m too dependent. I guess its a ”good thing” then that we’re having to spend more time apart.  :-(  

This is only supposed to be for a few months, and I really am happy for him to finally be doing something he loves (and making money)…but thinking about this only gets me worried about more things. Mostly, is this an industry standard? When he’s finally working full time will his schedule always be like this? If in the (very far) future we were to be married, is this what my life would come down to? Leaving to work before he comes home, and getting home after he’s gone….only to see each other on Sunday and Monday nights?!! [sigh] I’m not sure what I’d do if that answer to that was yes. I suppose I would just hope he started making enough money for me to quit and we could live a nocturnal existance. Ok, I’m probably being over-dramatic but its a possibility right?

That brings up another (completely unrelated) point. I think I need to switch up my BC pills. I’ve been majorly PMSing and over-emotional for some time now…and I seriously think its the pills. [double sigh] Sorry, TMI? Anyway, I hope this is somewhat alleviated when I start working out regularly.

I completely digressed there. What I was getting at is that I’m a planner, and so I’d already had plans for us in my head for this weekend, however because of this job none of it is going to happen…including the skydiving, and it really has me bummed out. I guess its good for my wallet…except that I also realized this week that he’s not going to be around on my birthday, nor will I be able to do what I was planning for our 5 year anniversary!!! Ugh. 

 I guess its a sacrifice we both have to make, and I can’t ask him to give this up merely because I choose to be selfish.

 

On the bright side (there always has to be one, doesn’t there?) I now have plenty of time to exercise in the evenings, I go to bed earlier, and I can start focusing on my business again. [shrugs] At least thats what I’m telling myself until this is over.